"Serious, but not hopeless"

Those were the oncologists words to us this morning.

We got Cody's CT results back yesterday, but there was so much confusion that I didn't wanna post anything until I knew for sure. The report stated a bunch of "may be this" and "may be that" - so Dr. Briscoe, the visiting oncologist, wanted to view the scans personally, with her own eyes, to see how things were going.

Cody's bones are seriously affected, which we knew. But sometimes you don't realize how serious something really is until you hear it a few times. Then it starts to sink in.

The scans only showed minimal or slight shrinkage in the tumors. This leads the oncologists to believe that the type of chemo regimen Cody has been getting isn't very effective. So they're going to continue with his regular protocol everyday this week, run some more tests next week, and then make a decision based on the test results.

It's crazy because Cody looks so good and seems to be doing so well on the outside.

The radiation has helped tremendously! Cody is still able to walk around without the back brace and has very little to no pain at all. He still has to wear the back brace for the most part especially while his bones are healing. Right now he has a horribly sore throat due to all the radiation which is totally common and should clear up within the next week.

Cody is actually doing really awesome! He encourages me so much every single day. He deserves a medal of honor after all this! He never complains, never gets mad, never speaks an angry word. He is already so much like Jesus. I'm so thankful to have the most incredible husband.

I'm also thankful for all of your prayers! Please don't stop. They are crucial. Please pray specifically for:

* BREAKTHROUGH

* JOY

* CONTENTMENT

* DEEP HUNGER & THIRST FOR JESUS

* CODY'S SORE THROAT

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On a semi-lighter note, I was pretty upset after seeing the doctor today and hearing this news. Sometimes I cry and it's pretty uncontrollable! Once I get started, I just can't stop no matter how hard I try. I once heard Heidi Baker refer to tears as "liquid prayers" so I'll just call 'em that too :) I literally flooded heaven today!

So I left the doctors office and drove to Safeway to buy Cody some soup and drops for his throat. I was just driving along, all caught up in my emotions that I totally ran a stop sign. A few minutes later, I glance in my rearview mirror to see a policeman with his flashers on. I didn't even realize I had just done something totally illegal, so I pulled off the road to let him pass. Well, he didn't pass! He pulled over right behind me! And you can imagine that this only made me cry that much more! I quickly aplogized and told him that I was just so upset I didn't even realize what I had done. I shared with him briefly why I was crying.... and then he started sharing with me that his wife just went through breast cancer and he works with an officer that's a SURVIVOR of stage 4 testicular cancer. I was totally encouraged right there on the side of the highway. So I thanked him for "pulling me over and encouraging me!" ONLY God can turn something like that into a total divine appointment.

So often I feel sad and just long for a hug from someone familiar. But when I look around me no one's there. And in those times, I cry out to God to send an angel. Today I didn't even have to ask for one. Even though the officer didn't give me a hug, I knew God was right there with me and He Himself was hugging me.

"We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield." Psalm 33:20