Friday, June 20, 2008

Holding on for dear life

I cried myself to sleep last night. I really hate it when I do that, cause then I wake up with puffy eyes.

I'm glad it's friday. This week sucked! It felt like this weird cloud of funk just settled right over us. The only thing that remotely brings me comfort is The Message, which is kinda funny for me cause I was never interested in it before. But for some reason, the words are speaking right to my heart. They're so raw and so real. I gotta buy a copy.

This is such a crazy journey we're on. I've always heard about the "valley of weeping", but now I've been there and seen it with my own eyes. And the wilderness, what a wild place. One day I feel totally abandoned by God and the next, He's right here. It's like a game of hide and seek, but not as much fun as it was when I was a kid.
We're holding on for dear life....

2 comments:

Sandra L. Brown, MA said...

This is when Toni would say she would stop 'watching' and stop 'thinking.' Your brains just need a little break from the constant processing of all this. Whenever you want to stop compulsively worrying, watch and sense your breathing. It will bring you out of your head and into your body in a peaceful state. You can't worry and focus at the same time! It's a good thing! HUGS

Ouida said...

Amy & Cody
today's "God Calling" reminds me of a book I've read call "The Red Sea Rules." Please email me (ouidaray@gmail.com) your mailing address and I'll send you a copy. I think it will help in the journey...and remember...you don't have to keep your chin up, because God IS the Lifter of Your Head....let Him do it!