After 5 days and 3,000 miles of travel... I'm exhausted. Yesterday, I drove 17 hrs straight from Oklahoma City to my parents driveway in Penrose.
I literally fell into the waiting arms of my mom... and pretty much came undone! It was so amazing to see her, hold her, have her hold me, cry on her shoulder, and just be with her. I love my mom so much!
I got home and just wept and wept. It has been really hard because there are so many incredible memories here.
There was a package waiting for me from a dear friend. I opened it to find a beautiful handmade quilt - sown with much love and prayers. I immediately spread it out on my bed, climbed under, and was overwhelmed with such perfect peace. I fell right to sleep and slept the best I've slept in like 3 wks! Thank you so much, Vickie!!
I woke up bright and early this morning and just couldn't wait to go to church. I HAD to go.
Tomorrow (monday) I'm going to visit my grandma who's in hospice care and has been literally waiting for me to get here, if you know what I mean. I'm expecting a sweet time with her.
My heart is sad to say the least, but I just have to keep reminding myself that Cody is with Jesus. I have to stay so close to Him. I'm trying to keep a kingdom perspective. If I take my eyes off of Jesus for even 1 second, my mind starts racing. So I can't. I have to be near Him all time... singing, talking, worshipping. I have to stay in His presence. It's the best place. It's the ONLY place!
3 comments:
I had a great day today:) It was great to be with you again.. i love you Amy Freakin Spahr!
Hi Amy
I shared about Cody and you with my Arbic church. my church and I prayed for you. as I was reading the loge today, I was cring . I realy miss you so much and wash I can see you soon but I know what even you are so far away , you are so close to my heart.I like you to know that every time I see the lord in my time of worship, i see cody in heaven with the lord having a great time. we are praying for you here in Lake county , you are a family to us for all the days of out life on earth. missssssssssssss you and love you soooooooooo much
Dear Amy,
I just wanted you to know that I have been praying for you. I can imagine how you must have felt seeing your mom. Sometimes there just aren't words to express how you feel, but a mom always knows how your are doing just by that one special hug. I will continue to pray for a special time in Asheville. love you! Missy
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