I don't really have much to say today. I'm feeling so broken this morning. It's not necessarily the worst place to be because it always draws me to my knees.
The past couple days have been really hard. Last night I talked with my mother-in-law for the first time in a month or so. We're both missing Cody terribly! Please pray for her if you have a moment today.
I'm thinkin' there's something special about the kind of worship we offer God here on earth... in all of our brokeness, pain, and sorrow. I believe God just absolutely loves it when we worship Him in the midst of our storms. Think about it. When we get to heaven, everything will be perfect. Our worship will be different. But here we have a chance to offer ourselves to Him in a way that we will never be able to when we see Him face to face. There won't be any tears there... no pain, no waves of grief consuming us, no sorrow.
Sometimes we just have to purpose ourselves to worship God no matter what happens to us. We have to be unwilling to concede.
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Amy, I too am having an unusually hard time grasping for the first time that this is my first Christmas without my parents. My mother loved Christmas, she loved to give...she loved to receive...and she loved cards. As I was going through last year's cards, I found the last Christmas card my mother sent me....and I wept.
But within the sobbing was a peace...the peace that always 'surpasses' our understanding. I agree...sometimes we just have to offer ourselves to Him face to face. And in our brokeness is when we hear His sweet voice and feel His arms surrounding us.
Thank you for being so transparent. Through God's anoiting by your grieving, you are helping many people.
Love you
Ouida
for not having a lot to say, you said just enough perfectly! Thanks! by the way, I pray for my special list of people right before I go to sleep, and I was impressed to pray for the families as well. It's nice how God answers requests before they are posted! : )
i love you Amy! i feel like a bad friend... I barely got to see you the whole time you were here! :( i think about you and am still praying often. I hope you thanksgiving was GOOD! the pictures are awesome! i hope to talk to you soon!!!
lots of love and hugs
~Moo
Amy, you made me have a "spiritual cry" but that was ok too. I needed it as I, too, am having difficult days. I am fighting "self" about Jeremy & Tamara's "soon departure" and the feeling of "emptiness" I will have during the holidays without them. I am determined that I won't loose this Christmas since they are still here but my heart hurts.
Praise the Lord! The Biltmore Baptist Church Carolina Mountain Christmas production has witnessed over 200 people accept Jesus. Isn't that awesome? I am so thankful to be a small part in the production and be a part of what God is doing at Biltmore.
I am praying for your strength and your broken feeling. This is so normal but so hard. I can only imagine how much you are missing Cody. It would be horrible if you didn't miss him. I am praying that God will fill the void in your heart with all the love He has for you and your hurts will turn to memories.
I love you,
Mama B
What an awesome perspective. We think of you often and are lifting you up in prayer. Thanks sooo much for sharing your pain with us. It's a beutiful worship that you're doing. Thanks for this new perspective. I'm never thought of it like that before. Looking back on some of our times of suffering, I can rejoice a little more now.
Great post. I am so glad you have Jesus. I know there is nothing any of us here could say that could come close to helping you like He does. I will pray for a touch from Him, a hug, a kiss. That is what you need I think, Him. Like you say again and again He is the answer. He is your answer. I am praying for you!!!!
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