I know this might sound silly, but I just changed my profile picture on Facebook and then had a good cry!

It was a picture of Cody and me that had been there for almost a year.

I really miss him lately. Something about the cooler weather has really put a longing in my heart for him. (well the longing is always there, but there are so many memories from this time of year)

The memories of this month are so deep and still so raw. A year ago yesterday we got the dreadful news that there was nothing else the doctors could do for Cody. Honestly, sometimes I still feel like I'm in shock. Especially when I try to look at pictures. Somedays I can do it, somedays it just breaks my heart too much. Reality is very sloooowly sinking in.

I love Cody so much and I miss him more than any words can ever express.