Thanks so much for praying for us today! Sorry it has taken me so long to post an update, but it's been a long, hard day. And honestly, sometimes I just don't know what to say. First of all, that picture is my precious husband pretending to be Mother Teresa. It made me laugh so much...I love it!

After 2 units of blood and 1 unit of platelets yesterday, it left Cody with a lot of fluid around his lungs which caused shortness of breath and pain when he took a deep breath. Apparently, it's common and the nurses see it all the time. It's the first time it's ever happened to Cody. The nurse gave him a diuretic to help him go to the bathroom, which helped only a little. They gave him some paid med's and sent us home.

One other thing that I noticed this morning was the lump on Cody's left side was more swollen and puffier than it's ever been. We showed it to the doctor, who in turn went to look at past CT scans and informed us that the tumor on Cody's left lung has grown and is pressing up against his ribcage. It's a concern, but not an immediate concern - if that makes any sense. We'll see his oncologist sometime next week. There's also still talk about a bone marrow biopsy, but Cody's counts have to be up in order for that to happen. So we'll see... With all that said, I just have to say that even though Cody has this horrible mass attached to his left lung, his oxygen level is 100% - praise God!!

In the midst of all the craziness, some friends of ours from NC were passing thru and stopped by to see us. Ronda & Randy Corn are missionaries with the North American Mission Board and had been down in Fresno helping with wildfire relief. It was such a blessing to see them!! They just brought with them a little piece of home and it felt so good seeing their faces. It felt like a dream.

I held it together really well today until R & R had to leave. They prayed over us and then I derailed. It's so hard when we've all just been praying so much and we get this news, and it feels like things are just getting worse. I guess this is where the rubber meets the road. Am I gonna believe that God is who He says He is? Am I gonna stand on His promises? Am I gonna trust Him?

Yes! I believe and I trust, but it doesn't make it easy. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through in my entire life. Yeah, God's grace is sufficient and it's some truly amazing grace - but right now I just wanna say "enough is enough!"