i dreamed of Cody all night. he was here, so healthy with his long curly hair... and i was pregnant! that was the hardest thing to wake up to and realize it was all just a dream. what torture!
i've been an emotional mess all day. red face, swollen eyes. you name it. i'm emotionally exhausted.
but it's not all bad. in the midst of misery, God is so loving and gracious. He is so tenderhearted. and He loves me well through His people.
i really appreciate all of you who are still reading (what perseverance!), and still praying for me. God gives me little glimpses along the way.
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And so close to his 1 year death anniversary--no wonder you are dreaming right now. I haven't been dreaming but have been thinking so much of him during my waking hours. Have played the song 'Fly' a million times thinking of him, now and there.
I often wonder if there is a gift or message in our dreams. Why THAT dream? (We sort of know why NOW) but what is in it? Maybe just a reminder of God's tender mercies. I don't know...but I imagine that dream was painful on many levels. Peace and prayers to you and to everyone who is remembering Cody as we lead up to his death anniversary.
i'm still here Amy and anticipating the next adventure for you....
love from here.
Amy,
I cannot imagine how much you miss Cody and how much your grieve and hurt for future things, like children with Cody. But I know you are clinging to your Father in the midst of ALL of your pain! I do continue to pray for you as you miss him! Praying for God to be ENOUGH and abundant in the midst of every day! Praying for God to sustain you and that you would continue to feel and experience his love and comfort in ways only He can give!
We're so proud of you, Amy. We had a girl come to barn church last night who's name is Kalali. It's African for, "cheerful warrior". What a kalali you are for God's Kingdom. We love you.
Justin Rhodes
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