mi vida loca

i really have such a crazy life, but i wouldn't change a thing. well, except to have Cody here, of course. i've lost count of how many beds i've slept in in the past 6 mths... and how many miles i've racked up on my Jeep. as i sit here, 3 days before boarding a flight to the Middle East, i feel a little bit contemplative. i can't really explain it, but maybe it's just the major congestion going on in my head and chest. i think the neti pot might become my new best friend!

as i made my way from house to house yesterday at ywam-charlotte, i experienced a roller coaster of emotions. it was really hard saying goodbye to my family there. as i drove away, this really painful lump just sat in my throat. i really love that base and the people who make it what it is. they make me feel so loved and accepted... and they really know how to love people with the love of Jesus. i'm so grateful for the short season that God allowed me to spend there. it went by so fast!

and now here i am again...


with a Jeep full of "stuff" that needs to be unloaded... story of my life...and a travel backpack that leans up against the wall waiting to be filled.
i guess what's on my heart the most tonight is how God always provides for me. no matter where i am or what i'm doing, He always takes care of me. from the "surprise" $200 check that i got in the mail last week, to a friend who offered to pay for me to go to the eye doctor and get new contacts, to the friend who invited me over for dinner when i was broke and alone. the list goes on. but i say all that to say that i love living by faith. its such an adventure.. and so much fun. yeah, there's times when i wanna stress out, but God always comes through. He really knows how to take care of His kids.


i have so much peace about this upcoming trip. it's gonna be life changing, i suspect. i can't believe i get to walk where Jesus walked. this has been a dream ever since i decided to follow him almost 10 yrs ago. i'm sure the fullness of the reality of it all hasn't quiet hit me yet. it feels surreal. God has promised me new things and a new season.

"for i am about to do a brand new thing. see i have already begun!" Is. 43:19a

i can't wait to go on this journey with Him. He has promised to comfort me in Jerusalem as a child is comforted by its mother (Is. 66:13). to heal my broken heart. to give me beauty for ashes, joy instead of mourning, praise instead of despair. thank you, Lord.